the black nathalie sancoeur.

  • This is the only time I'm gonna talk about my mother.

    Before my mother's death, I will say that half of my life was dedicated to taking care of her. She always had issues with her health, and being as young as nine years old was when I first started to care for her. When she died, it was the first time I could truly take care of myself. Going to therapy wasn’t doing much, and you want to know why? Because afterward, when my session was over, I had to take care of her. One of the main things causing me so much distress, and I had no choice.
  • Here's some of my favorite podcasts if you don't wanna listen to people complain about dating.

     Let me tell you something: plenty have started podcasts only really to talk about dating culture along with being extremely misogynistic, and guess what? I am not a fan of those podcasts, and many others have expressed that they don’t like them much. Here are some of my favorite podcasts; you may find one that captures your interest.
  • How miserable do I have to be before you’re happy.

    While the context of the situation is different than what I’m feeling, the line where Millhouse says, “How miserable do I have to be before you're happy?” sticks with me forever. I continue to ask myself, “Why do you continue to put your well-being at stake for the comfort of others? If you keep doing that, you’ll keep being taken advantage of and have no money in your pocket.”
  • 2023 favorites.

    What better way to close out one of the most challenging years of my life on a positive note than with some things I enjoyed? I liked many things in 2023, and if I sat and talked about all of them, you would be here all day, and I know you want to do other things, hehe.
  • These are the worst books I read in 2023.

    Ah, it’s wrap-up season, isn’t it? This year, I tried to go after things I would enjoy, as I do not have the patience to sit to anything I won’t enjoy. Thankfully, I enjoyed most of the media I consumed this year, but there will always be some bad apples in the bunch. I have read quite a few books in 2023 and enjoyed most of them, but I found myself irritated after finishing some of the stories. Here are the books I disliked the most in 2023.
  • For T'Shauna.

    But you were much more than just a person I worked with; you were a good friend of mine just as well. I could talk to you about anything, even when it came down to shows you never watched or books you never read, you always listed. And you always offered me great advice. You were aware of my workaholism and encouraged me to rest. I really appreciated that.
  • Anyone ready for 2023 to GTFO?

    2023 has been a very draining year for many. Let’s go ahead and get the cat out of the bag. Every week, more like every day, it’s something new. Even when I am doing things for fun, I am with the dread of how dark the world is and want to lie down. 
  • Y'all were not nice to Rubi Rose.

    Content note: This blog post is intended for mature audiences; this is only advised for those 18 and older to read.

    Respectability politics has been a trending topic this year because of people's reactions towards celebrities. The main talking point I saw was, “Halle is a Disney princess, and you’re just a s*x worker,” and that’s where all the discourse began to go south for me.

  • Amaya Janelle, the other writer of Um, Do Not Call Me Sis.

    For those who don’t know, the new book Um, Do Not Call Me Sis was not only written by me. It was also written by a great friend of mine named Amaya “My My” Janelle
  • A letter to someone who hurt me.

    While you left me with all this trauma, there is something: I refuse to feel the way you made me feel about myself ever again.
  • Star Vs. The Lack of Boundaries.

     Marco and his parents were her host family. When it comes to host families, you aren’t cut off from dating altogether, but dating one of the people you’re staying with is a no-no. First-year High school students do not need to live with people they are dating. Sorry not sorry, but if that was the intent from the beginning, that being Star and Marco dating, then the writing needed work to show that. 
  • I am so picky when it comes to cosplay.

    Being more involved with the cosplay community within the last few years, there tends to be so much negativity that surrounds individuality and the activity. It's interesting because cosplay is something plenty of people do, and for that reason alone, I am so picky when it comes to it.